Sunday, October 31, 2010


I was really not looking forward to winter
after all, I wont be snowboarding this year. Not even once.
I have to snowmobile/snowshoe to the house.
Winter has it's pros and cons
and this year the cons outweigh the pros for sure
now that I have these amazing boots......

and I just want it to snow some more so I can wear them!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Good News

Things I will Definitely be needing in the near future:

Ergo Baby Carrier

The First Years Bottle Sterilizer

and yes, this definitely means what you think it means

May 8th is the due date

We are very excited

clean house

I have always been a horrific house cleaner.
What can I say? I hate cleaning.
As much as i want to walk into a clean house every night
I just can't bring myself to keep it clean.
It's a constant battle.
I came up with a system.
Clean a room a day, every day except Sunday.
Tuesday-Living room
Thursday-bathroom and Laundry Room (both small rooms)
Saturday-Closet (which is really a room all it's own)

So far so good. It's only been two days.
I hope I can keep this up.
One room at a time is a lot less overwhelming to conquer
than the entire house in a day.
I'm hoping that after the first week, things will stay pretty tidy, and I will simply have to de-clutter, dust, and vacuum the rooms.

We'll see.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Oakley, UT

I really love where I live
It's beautiful and peaceful and quiet and the air is so clean up here.
I see deer every day, moose once a week, and lots of other wildlife.
My backyard is a mountain.
It's great, but sometimes it gets a little lonely.
can you imagine having to drive for an hour every time you want to hang out with friends?
how do you meet people in a rural area without having kids or going to church?
you don't I guess.
It would be nice to be able to call a friend down the road
when I feel like a bike ride or a hike or just hanging out.
but an hour of driving sometimes isn't worth just hanging out.

Just venting.

Monday, October 4, 2010


I have been alarmed and disturbed over and over again on reports of such intolerance and judgement from the very people who claim to be a peaceful people, of tolerance, and who preach that judgement will come from no one but their god, and that he judges with mercy. How can these people be so delusional as to think that their religion, and their god would approve of any violent act? As a person raised in a christian faith, I know for a fact that such acts cannot be justified as a christian. I am not attacking Christians at all, but People who claim to be followers of any Christan gospel, and use religion to justify violent acts. Whether it's bullying someone because of their sexual preference, and making them feel so worthless that it drives them to suicide, or attacking doctors or nurses who perform abortions, and the women who need them. Christian preach against all evils, even small things like gossiping and slandering, yet I hear some of the most outrageous comments from people who claim to be Christians. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, and notices these things. In fact i think it is what drives people aways from the christian church. What those people don't understand is that it isn't the gospel itself, or the teachings of it, but the interpretation of individual people that creates these problems.

Gandhi said,"I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ"
What a shame that in so many instances Gandhi has been right.

July 29, 1994: Dr. John Britton and James Barrett, a clinic escort, were both shot to death outside another facility in Pensacola. Rev. Paul Jennings Hill was charged with the killings. Hill received a death sentence and was executed on September 3, 2003.

September 30, 2000: John Earl, a Catholic priest, drove his car into the Northern Illinois Health Clinic after learning that the FDA had approved the drug RU-486. He pulled out an ax before being forced to the ground by the owner of the building who fired two warning shots from a shotgun

These are just two instances out of Many Murders, attempted murders, bombings, and bio-chemical threats on abortion clinics, not only by christians, but christian leaders! I don't even know what to say. Speechless.

I recently did some research on a man named Roy Moore, who many people remember because of the ten commandments monument that he refused to remove from his courthouse as the judge. In result he was removed from office. he believed homosexuality to be so evil that he ruled in a custody battle that the children be awarded to a very abusive father, instead of the lesbian mother, who obviously cared for and loved her children and wished to protect them. I remember a specific instance when a friend of mine who is a lesbian said to me, Lesbians still have a maternal instinct. So true. Don't worry, his ruling was overruled, and the children awarded to the mother.

and what about Reverend Terry Jones, recently preaching hate and intolerance of another religion, and planning to burn the Quran? That is certainly not a christian act.

Now in the last month I know everyone else has heard so much about bullying, and specifically against homosexuals. There have been numerous suicides, far too many, of young kids, who have been teased and taunted so much that they felt that life wasn't worth living. There hasn't been anything said about who did the bullying and whether or not they claim to be Christians, but that isn't the issue here. The issue is that our society, which is largely based on christian sentiments and values, is teaching our young people not only that homosexuality is wrong, but that it is to be persecuted against, that homosexuals are not aas human as everyone else, and they don't deserve the respect that all human beings do. Instead shouldn't we be teaching our young people to accept the people around them, whether or not we accept their beliefs? To embrace our differences as a diverse society? That this kind of intolerance is unacceptable in any form? People are dying!

These are people's rights that are being attacked. Their right to privacy, their right to choose, their right to be. It is protected, the same way that freedom of religion is protected. How can members of a group that was once the victim of violent persecution take the same vengeance on any other group of human beings?

the question here is not whether abortion, or homosexuality is right or wrong, but whether the actions people take against them are worse? I certainly do think they are, and I think that no christian can honestly justify such an unchristian act.
The basic belief of Christianity is love. Love your neighbor, love your enemy, show compassion, show mercy, show understanding, show patience, show kindness, show humility, show tolerance. All christian sentiments.

Mat 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which spitefully use you, and persecute you;

the truth is, that according to christian faith, our sins have already been taken care of by our savior Jesus Christ. If there is to be a punishment, it will be in the afterlife. It is not our job as fellow human beings, or as fellow Christians to punish people for there sins here on earth. Not our job to accuse them, not our job to inform them, and not our job to convert them if they do not want to be. It is our job to respect them, their rights, and their choices, whether or not we agree with them. It is our job to let god be the judge.

These people who judge so harshly, who persecute so freely, are the very people that Jesus warned us about in the sermon on the mount:

Beware of the false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Grapes are not gathered from thorn bushes nor figs from thistles, are they?
So every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit.
Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. So then, you will know them by their fruits.

I don't know what specific religion I believe in. They are all so skewed by their believers. I do know that if I claim to believe it I will do my very best to follow it. I Believe in Love, I believe in my rights as a human being, and an american. I believe that violence is never the answer, and I believe that there are a lot of insane people out there that give the religion they claim a very bad name. I believe that if i wanted to marry a woman, i should be allowed, and if i feel the need to abort a fetus that is in my body, it is my right to do so. That is not to say whether I think either of those are ethically right or wrong, but, I believe they are my rights.

I believe that unless you can put yourslelf in someone else's shoes, 100%, can understand who they are, where they came from, what they know, what they believe and the situation that they are in, that there is no way that you can judge their actions, no matter what they are. We can only judge ourselves, and fix our own faults, and flaws. The girl in that abortion clinic might have a heart defect making childbirth too risky, or she may have no support system, nowhere else to turn, no money, and an abusive boyfriend who would force her into having this baby if he knew, forcing the rest of her life to be spent with him in it. Maybe adoption or birth really isn't an option for her.

That homosexual kid might be at home every night worrying, trying so hard to fit in, pretending to be something he is not, and praying to the same god that you do that no one ever finds out. I hope when someone does find out they let him know it is ok, and he is not worthless and he is not evil and that life is still very much worth living.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

day 6- favorite super hero and why
not really sure about this one. I like Iron Man, but mostly because the movies are rad.

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Couldnt think o something in particular, but im always collecting beautiful photos that inspire me, like these.

day 8- short term goals for this month and why
Just get through it, have a great birthday, get used to my new job, and get ready for winter. Maybe get a little better at taking care of our home like i should.

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days
Got a new job, got some work done around the house.

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
Im always collecting new music. just downloaded an album by Mumford and Sons which rocks, and other new music like the strokes, shins, phoenix, band of horses, arcade fire. all kinds of oldstuff fromt he 80's and 90s, Dave matthews because mike loves it so much, Green eyes and Till kingdom come by coldplay. Sometimes I bust out the jazz collection, and even some romantic era classical stuff by mahler and rad composers like that.


I was a very angry, contentious child, which resulted in me not having the best family relationships when I was younger. Now that I have grown up things have improved greatly, but I definitely think that because of my adolescent behavior I probably missed out on some good times with my brothers and sister. Now I am so grateful for the time we spend together as a family. The greatest thing about family is that no matter what, they will always be there for you. They may be judgemental, seem annoying, be overwhelming at times, or disagree with your lifestyle, but imagine if you didnt have them? I think It's worth every fight, and every disagreement to have the security, and support of your family members. No matter what you do they will always forgive you, and will always love you. I am glad I am blessed with such a family. I'm grateful for a mother and father who sacrificed so much for us, and brothers who probably grew up a little too early to be responsible for us. There are a few things I wish I had done more as a kid, that I try to apply to my relationships now.

-Think twice before I speak
-Always consider someone's feelings and try to put myself in their shoes before I get angry or judge them.
-When I think of something negative, try to replace it with all of the positive things about that person. Usually the good outweighs the bad.
-If I become angry, remove myself from the situation to calm down.
-Listen, and really consider someone's point of view. Understand that you aren't always right, and arguing for the sake of arguing will not get you anywhere.
-Simply treat others as you would like to be treated. Try to constantly uplift, and only speak positively about people.

Life really isn't meant to be spent holding grudges and creating contention. It's short, and should be spent with those who matter the most.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

It's been forever
I just havent been able to find the motivation to post lately
or to do much of anything really
but there is some catching up to do.

The trip was amazing, and the wedding was perfect.

we got home and had to work hard to get ready for the party.

It was wonderful and we are so grateful to everyone for helping out.
We are glad it's over so we can relax.

I got a part time job to supplement the income I have been Making from Nannying.
The nannying job was unexpected, and turned out so great. I wasn't looking forward to a summmer job, and nannying was perfect. I'm making more money nannying then I would at a full time job anyways, and it's money we dont want to pass up. Plus I really love the boys, and caring for them is fun and easy.

So I got a part time job at Knead A message working as a receptionist. Want to hear something great? I get FREE massages!

so far it's great.